Changed.

I use to be the girl who did not believe in love.
I use to think a relationship was stupid, pointless.

We'll that has changed. Lately i find myself wanting a relationship.
Unfortunately i am so picky when it comes to the boy i could actually take that step with.
To be honest there have really only been two boys who i could have seen myself in a relationship with. I however did not show that feeling to much with the second boy considering the stupid things i did.

Being home only makes me want it all the more. Why? I haven't a clue. I feel love all around me when i am home between friends and family. That is enough to keep me going, but i feel as though i need it from a boy. All through freshman year i had that guy so not having it just sucks. Is it selfish to want that? No not at all. It is just so hard to find.

My heart seems to be leaning towards certain people although completely unexpected and not plausible. And no it is not the old dummies i use to want.

Anyways lately it is all i think about and i see my friends thinking the same thing. When will it be all of our turns? When will we have our double, triple, and quadruple dates and all be happily in a relationship. I personally do not think this is to out of the question.

As for myself i do not feel like that happy feeling is to far away for me.


Only the angels know.
Til later

<3 gabs