Adventure Night

Tonight Jill Mel and I drove all the way to Socha's house. wow what an adventure. Driving around in fog in the middle of no where and ending up at a random party where i actually new someone. RANDOM. However driving around tonight could not have been more fun, sure we didnt do any crazy things, but theres just something about driving around with your closest friends that is fun.
A boy texted me today who i havent talked to in forever. and i could not be happier, seeing as my most recent guy turned into a DB. well really its his friend who is a DB. whatever. So that started off my happy night, then we went on our adventure.
I'm so glad i have friends that i can do absolutely nothing with and still have so much fun.


Change is something so hard to accept for alot of people. However i find myself embracing it. I know we are all use to our comfort zones here in no where jersey, and that is great but its holding us all back. As much as i love how everything is just as they are right now, nothing can last forever. and you know what of everything lasted forever what would be the fun. Life has somewhat become a repetition. Not in a bad way,mm but living in the small towns we live in, we pretty much do the same thing wether it be driving around, hanging out at one of our houses, mall, movies, parties we've been with the same people forever. Even though we switch who we are with alot, i dont know it just got repetitive. This is where the change is a good thing. Believe me i love how everything is i love what me and my friends do, but now is when we grow up. We are going into the part of our lives that decide who we are and what we are going to be. The next four years are a vital part of life. Not just because we get our degrees and everything but now when we leave for school in 15 short days, we are in control of our own lives. We have to make it to class on time, we have to wake ourselves up. No one is going to be down our throats to do homework and study. We have to go get our own food, our own everything. Our parents wont be there to hold our hands any more, metaphorically speaking of course.
I feel like where i have grown up, i have been in sort of a bubble. So far from the world, and i never cared about more then what me and my friends where doing, i never really cared about outside news and what was going on in the world. That really has to change. And it comes with growing up. I mean yea we are still young, but this is the part of our lives where we can't be oblivious to whats going on in the world around us. I can vote this year, and yes i am going to but to be completely honest i have no idea what candidate stands for what. I have to start caring about whats going on in the world and not whos screwing who or who broke up with who.

It seems strange to even think about that stuff. Like hearing adult talk as a child i would always get bored and frankly watching the news still pretty much bores me. But how can i get anywhere in the world if i dont know whats going on?

I know change is weird and i know its hard, but as my blogs name says we grow up not apart. Growing up is something we have to accept and face. We can try and fight it but sadly that is one fight none of us can win. We have to take control of our lives. I myself have many dreams and ambitions i want to fulfill. I know that the road ahead of me is one of hard work and many a tired night. I know that things will disappoint me and things arent going to work out 100% the way i want. Nothing can be perfect, but if you look at life that way i believe you won't get far. If something doesnt go how i planed. Try again. I dont like giving up and i dont intend to when i go for my goals. I accept what life throws at me and try to make the best i can. Each day is a new day with new opportunities. If one day i should fail, i will wake up the next and succeed. I may sound like a babbling buffoon right now but one day you will all see where i was going with this entry.

One of my friends is having a hard time accepting the chane we all soon are going to face. She has always hated change, and both her and I have not had to face it to much. We've pretty much been in the same spot for school of 13 years. Pretty much the same identical routine with a few changes each year. We are use to where we went to school and wearing uniforms for all those years. And most of the kids we went to school with have been with us forever. I can see how change can be scary from that. Everything is just so familiar. Life seems perfect just as we are. We are happy go lucky teenagers with pretty much not a care in the world. If we stay like this forever sure life would be great, but our dreams will never come true. We want to live in the city together, have dogs named dolce and cookie, go on cute double dates, and hopefully live next door to our other two best friends. Oh wouldnt that be the life. But if we did not embrace the change ahead, how will we ever get there. We will always have each other to lean on, all four of us in fact. We will always be there for one another, just because we are all x miles apart from each other and i think the farthest like an hour and a half does not mean the comfort of each other and the safety we have in another will be gone. I know college is a scary experience but we are all fun happy pretty girls. College will be great for all of us. and i promise this friend that once she gets to school and sees the changes arent so bad she will love it.



Night for now.