Home Sweet Home

College. What can i say about it?
Simply put i love it.
SO much that i didnt want to come home before i had to.
However things change and now im home.

My friends dad came and picked him up from Marist today and he told me last minute so i decided to come home and see the people i love and have missed quite terribly. Dont get me wrong i was far from homesick. To tell the truth i could have gone a lot longer without coming home. I feel home up there. I feel comfortable and love the people i made friends with up there. Some are just like my favorites from back home. Nothing can replace the people i have had in my life. But its a nice change to have new faces and new experiences. I already miss college and ive been home for all of and hour and a half. Its weird i never felt like i wasnt home up there even on the first night.

Seeing as everything is new. so is my outlook on the whole boy thing. It's weird i went up there thinking boys would just be like they were here and i'd like to hook up with whoever, whenever. But its not like that at all. College isnt one big orgy like everyone makes it seem. I mean sure there are those few people who just bang different people, I am really good friends with one guy like that. That guy is a sweetheart at heart though, just needs to get it outta his system lol. I thought that would be me up there. Not sleeping wit every guy but just going crazy. Not that there arent a lot of boys to pick from up there. I just became happy with one. I dont know where that is going to lead. If it were up to me i would love it to become something. Its weird I have an ideal type in my head, and when you measure up the ideal to the boy, its almost matching. Im not head over heels yet dont get me wrong ive only known hom for wht three weeks. But when im near him i get happy. It kind of is bad though cause i kind of get jealous when he talks to other girls but hey every girl secretly gets like that wether they admit it or not. If i weren't home right now odds are id be either with this guy and his friends or at the bar clubbing.


Taking a break is a good thing i guess, but being home alone on a friday night isnt very fun lol. Dont get the wrong impression about what i said about that one guy. yes i like him, prob a little more each day. But its nothing big at all. Its a little girl crush at most, just when i talk about it it sounds like im so much more in like with him then i really am. And i do not want people to think that at all cause i dont want to scare him off.

Tomorrow im going to see Lauren and Jill for the first time since we all left eachother in Jills driveway. That will be exciting. I want my new and my old friends to meet.

Im not gonna lie. Being home i already feel a little bit different. It may have only been three weeks but i mean college life is a whole lot different. I dont feel as much as a baby any more and it didnt go back to feeling like it being home.


Night<3